Far From Perfect (Tony Hawk Diabeties)

2004-04-02T22:57:00.000-08:00

NEW ADDRESS

Seeing as the shoutouts dont work on this anymore, I have transfered over to LiveJournal.

My address is www.livejournal.com/burlybassist

check it out

2004-03-29T22:21:00.000-08:00

Untitled

No one stands alone on these days
When the wind echoes
Ill blow you away

Its a war that no one chose to start
When the sky darkens
Ill tear you apart

Pain and strife start to take over
When the blood flows faster and harder
Ill WASTE MY LIFE AWAY

Man i think that i am just the most mood changing person ever

2004-03-28T14:59:00.000-08:00

Playoff Pylon Hockey

Yeah, Pylons have beaten the UNDEFEATED Disciples Of Power.....in a shootout!

I also got an assist on the game tying goal..

I got three days left of my seven in a row, cause my boss is a pecker.

Went to Outlaws last night, for Paul and Matts birthday bash, it was weird how it was empty then all of a sudden, totally packed

Its like 20 degrees outside so im going go out and see whats going on

2004-02-09T22:26:00.000-08:00

Im Back

Hey,

Im back from BC and it feels good to get some of that Alberta air. I can't say that i didnt like staring at the Rocky Mountains, but I missed Chikka so BAD!!!!

I practised for a good hour today, played about half the songs I know.

I also finally finished making the Pylons Floor Hockey Team on my nhl 2004. Some people look so much like the real thing its scary. So far in the real floor hockey we are 1-2, but the next game is a guaranteed win. And I don't have to work until THURSDAY!! Oh baby that feels good, and I like my job anyway so WOOOOOOO!

Had Papa Johns Pizza for dinner, then went over to Matts and hung out with him and Melissa. Watched some Fear Factor and My Obnoxious Fat Fiance. Both good shows.

Might be a bravado practise tomorrow (OH PLEASE!!!!!!!!!), can only hope.

I gonna go get some food.

Email me.

2004-02-05T23:55:00.000-08:00

6 More DAYS of Freedom

Hey,

I know that no one ever reads this anymore but oh well.

Just thought I would post to keep the site alive.

Saw Billy Talent,
Saw the Rumours, fell in lust with their bass player.........so hot, Melissa Starr!!!!

Also got a raise up to 12 bucks an hour!

So yeah life is awesome, except I have to go to Emerald Lake tomorrow for 3 days.

Sharks also won tonight 5-0!

So now all of you go out and buy the cd The Mighty Can Fall at Futureshop!

night

2003-11-09T23:21:00.000-08:00

31 More Hours Of Freedom

31 more hours until I gotta go back to work. I gotta start at 7 am, I am so excited I
can't sleep. Yeah that a lie, I am totally a nighthawk, or maybe just a Tony Hawk,
hahahahaha.

Sorry, I just seemed like it worked.

Yeah so no more 4 am calls from my long lost friends, just a 10 pm call telling me that
they are back with lots of pictures. Man, I am so glad that they are back, Calgary just
wasnt the same.

I've almost beaten Tony Hawk's Underground. Im just stuck on this part in Moscow, I
gotta Spine Transfer over this HUGE wall. I just can't get enough air, and I get really
pissed off. Then I remember that Tony didnt make the game, and he is still the best
out there and then I'm all good.

Hung out Jeff last night, that was fun. Had some drinks at bp's and then went to
claudio's and hung out for awhile. I really got to get a daytimer, cause I tell all
these people I am gonna call them and then I forget. It must be the DIABETIES,
sorry guys.

Tonight, I hung out with Kendall. We went to Southcenter, saw Alison and one of
Kendall's other friends. I also saw Trevor and some other people from his church,
that was cool. Checked out some shoes for the Christmas Party on Tuesday, I need
some dress shoes badly!! In the parking lot, I took some Insulin. *important*

After that, we stopped off at my house, played some THUG. Then watched some
television. Then I didnt feel so hot, so I checked my blood sugar. I was at 2.9
NOT GOOD!!

5 mini chocolate bars and a glass of orange juice later.......

We were going to go to Treasures of China, but it wasn't open. So we went to
the Vietemese Village across the parking lot. Such good food!!

ok talking about food has made me hungry, so im gonna go and get some snacks.
cya

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Playlist
Something Beautiful - Cauterize
Hardest Button To Button - White Stripes
Kemp - Millencolin
Man or Mouse - Millencolin
Blinded - Bravado

2003-11-08T16:02:00.000-08:00

Let MY weekend begin!

Hey, hope everyone is having a good day, the temperture actually got above 0, so
that is awesome. Just got home from work and now I got two days off, not sure
what I am gonna do.

I'm excited for tuesday, get to throw on the old suit and tie. Also Kendall bought
the hottest black dress. YEAH.....

I just remember today though, that I dont have any dress shoes. So I might borrow
some of my dads or go buy some....ugg.

Fun story, so at 4 am this morning, my cell phone starts vibrating on my desk. Its loud
enough to wake me up. So I answer it. Its Matt, calling from Vancouver, absolutly
smashed out of his mind. So he tells me about the trip, and how Vancouver ladies
are not as nice as Calgary women *cough* (Melissa).

Then Truck, got mad at me for not going to Outlaws on Thursday. But ill buy him a team
pitcher and we will be good again.

Yeah, alright...so im off to play some THUG (Tony Hawks UnderGround)
Peace

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Playlist
Away from the sun - 3 doors down
Numb - Linkin Park
Try Honesty - Billy Talent
Any Alkaline Trio *wink*

Away From The Sun

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

2003-11-05T21:35:00.000-08:00

Blog of the Day

Wow, my blog has finally made its red carpet apperance on Kendall's Blog.
I would like to thank Tony Hawk for giving me such a cool site address, also
my bass Chikka and Kendall for giving me this award.......yeah.

So anyway, last night I sat in front of my tv playing Nhl 2004 until 2 in the morning,
not really sure why, it just kinda happened.

Today, I woke up at 3 in the afternoon, and then I remembered that I had to coach
the floor hockey team at 5. So I call Matt and he tells me I got to meet his brother at
his house at 3:45.

OH GREAT...

So I had to run around and get ready in half an hour. Which I am quite proud of I did.

I get to Matts house, and Mike and I head down to Sait to pick up Matt. He was writing
a test worth 5% of his mark, but he rushed through it and got out in time to make the game.

It didn't really matter though, we got killed, 8-4.
Our goalie was playing really good though, it's just our defense SUCKED.

So yeah, after the game we go down to BPs and get some pizza and wings, watch the
Vancouver against Nashville game. I got 3 assists from Naslund, I think im in first in the
hockey pool now.

We got bored, after the game ended, so we when to Dave's house and played pool and
watched That 70s show. Then I drove Matt to Anderson station and picked up Melissa and
then I went home.

Somehow, Im still kinda tired, I just think that I never woke up, cause ive only been up for
like 7 hours. Whatever,

Nice talking to ya, cya

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Playlist
What I Like About You - Suicide Machines
Midtown - Perfect
Dumb Reminders - No use
Promise me - Cauterize

Promise Me

If this is a game, then I don't want to play.
This means too much to me and you're so far away.
But I will wait for you.
We can see this through.
Now it's up to you.
Please tell me, you feel the same way too.

A simple touch, the look in your eye, the sound of your voice.
They do something to me I've never felt but I don't ever want to leave.
Looks like it's happened to me once again.
Things are over before they started, another goodbye,
unless you want to...try and I'll promise you I'll try.

A warm embrace;
it's been a while since I've seen your pretty face.
If you would let me, I don't think I would ever leave this place.
Every shared night just feels so right
when I wake up with you in my arms, staring into my eyes.

Tell me that you'll be waiting.

2003-11-04T22:23:00.000-08:00

The Long Awaited Return

I will give you all a second to let this sink in,

Yep, I'm posting.

After taking a couple of months off I have come to realize that my life is now
interesting enough to blog about.

In recent news,

As Head Coach of my friends Floor Hockey team i am 1-0. *applause*
In the first game coaching we pulled of a 6-4 victory. Next game is tomorrow
ay 5 pm. Its gonna be good.

Also Kendall and myself are still dating, just in cause anyone was wondering,
she's awesome.

As well, my Bravado and diabetic bro Matt and Melissa are starting to get along
really well. I must say that I knew from the beginning it was gonna work, not that
im bragging or anything........ok I am.

This weather also really sucks, I gotta get some winter tires on Candy (my car), or
or else my beautiful paint job is gonna get all smashed up.

Tony Hawk's Underground is now available from your nearest video game
retailer, make sure to pick it up or add it to the christmas list.

Speaking of christmas, I get the pleasure of going to Kendall's new job christmas
party, FREE!!!!!!! yay!

Also Christmas will be my one year anniversary of starting to learn to play chikka (my bass)
Its gonna be Matt's 5th anniversary, he's so much better. meh

The job is the same as always, I do a good job and on my days off people slack....*shakes fist*
I think im due for a raise here pretty soon, that will get me up to around 11 bucks.

Alright well thats all for now, peace.

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Playlist
Feeling This - Blink 182
International You Day - No use
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

International You Day

i'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but i gave up
you see one million words can't describe
how it feels
to know your love

where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
that i'm closer then you think
when we're apart
nothing that i've tried
is as simple as this line

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

i swear i'm giving up my inside
to the one
that i adorded
i know this world is big enough
for you and i
but i'll give you more

i'm coming home today
to wipe the tear drop from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done
has ever been for one

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

my life is incomplete
my rites are absolutely gone
so wake me up
before you leave today
something i need to say
cause they'll be nothing when you're gone

2003-08-27T15:59:00.000-07:00

Out at 4:17

Thats the time I finally escaped from my job today. Who knew that one
order could make me this tired.

Western Island College placed a huge order today,

3 party pack cookies
16 dz cinnamon buns
16 dz cheese buns

That part is not my responsibilty but this is...

6 dz sugar cake donuts
6 dz powdered cake donuts
12 dz chocolate cake donuts
Muffins
6 dz wild berry
6 dz blueberry fusion
6 dz strawberry fusion
4 dz lowfat blueberry bran
12 dz chocolate chip
12 dz double chocolate chip

plus some fruit sticks, that like twice the amount of work I do in a day,
and I still had to do my other work.

FIRETRUCK!!

Kendall called my cell at like 12, she didnt believe I was working hard, so
this is my proof!

Ugg, excited for Sarahs party, but also super tired......

Song of the Day: Linkin Park - Faint

LINKIN PARK
Faint

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see
these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense
I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you’re all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

Now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

2003-08-26T22:23:00.000-07:00

Wow im bored

No one is around, this sucks.

Two nights in a row of staying home!!
I hate it, but im off wednesday so I am so getting drunk tomorrow.

And as things would normally go for me, Heather didnt work out.
Not really a surprise, just a reminder to give up on the whole dating thing.

I dont think i am gonna get married, kinda decided this in the last week,
I just dont think that I have a soulmate,
Maybe not everyone does, thats possible.

Also the Lead singer in Bravado, has been out of Calgary for a long time,
I wanna damn well band practise.

Yesterday, I went at 7 AM!! to the Southcenter Clinic, to get some blood tests
and other tests done. I think no matter how many needles you take, a blood
test is always scary. But I did it, and i wanna find out my average blood sugar
cause I think im a good diabetic *pats back*

Yeah.....umm today I got my haircut, its shorter now (duh). I think its gonna help
me at Sarahs party (which is only two sleeps away), ive been told that some new
people are gonna be there so possibly i might meet some girl.......hahahaha, yeah
right.

Another dumb thing is that me and my friend Keith are now having an argument,
so I havent talked to him in a while. I think he's really pissed at me, but whatever
he will get over it.

Alright, television here I come.....

Song of the Day: Cauterize - Killing Me

CAUTERIZE
Killing Me

I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think I'll be ready
to make the same mistakes again with you.

I finally figured out that you're not coming back and I'm not going anywhere.
You were the one with all the faith how did you let it slip away?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you and the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger, could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.

No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.

Tell me again about those better days.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, I tried to hide, still we managed to collide.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.

So I will save this last breath for words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying, but you're killing me.

Just when the wounds start healing you're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.

I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think I'll be ready
to make the same mistakes again without you.

2003-08-15T17:26:00.000-07:00

Wow i cant believe Kendall beat me, thats embarassing.

Downtown is fun,

American Wedding is the best movie,

January Jones is so HOT

Peace

2003-08-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

I havent posted for awhile for a couple of reasons

a) no time
b) all i was doing was working and sleeping

But now, as of late things are changing, for the better, its amazing.

I met this heather girl at Outlaws and got her number. We went to a house party and that was fun. I called her tonight and saw bad boys 2 with her and her friend ashley.
I really have a good feeling about her. I like her a lot, and Im not nervous around her so she is so easy to talk too.

One of the girls that works at the golf course got a picture of us at the party, and I want it!!!

Also one of the Bakers could be leaving to go to a different store, so i could be moving up, which means more moola!

I absolutly love this song, and cant wait to see Grind (opening August 15 in a theater near you)

song of the day: Too Bad About Your Girl - The Donnas

Question of the Day: American Pie 1, 2, or wedding, which one takes the cake (pie)?

2003-07-14T15:48:00.000-07:00

Vancouver

What an adventure.

7 days of just getting away from it all.

2003-07-05T15:01:00.000-07:00

2003-06-21T20:11:00.000-07:00

Hey whats up everyone,

Some sweet party last night at Jason's. Way to go man , Way to go,
Yeah

Some more crazy calgary weather today, hail and everything.

I got another day off tomorrow, I think that I am sleeping at Jeff's tonight, its been awhile,
Then in the morning we will get some Rickys breakfast, Grand Forks Platter..........mmm

Well Im going to see 2 Fast 2 Furious, WOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Peace

Song of the Day: Roit Girl - Good Charlotte

2003-06-19T20:24:00.000-07:00

2003-06-19T17:07:00.000-07:00

tony hawk
Magic Number	17
Job	Actor
Personality	Slacker
Temperament	Unflappable
Sexual	Whatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To Win	A Duel With Pistols
Me - In A Word	Beautiful
Colour
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2003-06-19T17:03:00.000-07:00

Your Life Will Be Filled With Sunshine

That is what my Jones bottle fortune said.
I believe it, cause lately the weather has been so nice, work has been flying by so fast cause I have been working my non existensist butt off.

Last night, I went to the casino, with graeme,
We had our ups and downs, but he ended payin me 100 bucks towards the 160 he owes me.

We then went to Tim Hortons, and i got 2 chili deals, and they were amazing!

Alright, time to enjoy my sunshine.......

Peace

Song of the Day: Clean Slate - Bodyjar

2003-06-18T17:44:00.000-07:00

Dude Wheres Your Car

oh man, last night was kinda interesting to say the least.

Started out with going to see A Man Apart, with Keith, that was a ok movie, i would give it one thumb down, just cause it was centered around so much talking........yeah.
Then from there, we saw berton with his beautiful car, that I might be buying,
I took it for a test drive, it holds the road so good, and the ride is so smooth, but it is automatic, WHYYYYYYYYYY!

So then, berton met up with jeremy and they went to see Anger Management.
Keith and I went to get Mcdonalds, and that took a while.

We tried calling sarah, but she didnt have her cell on, so we just wandered around midnapore for a couple hours and then went home.

Song of the Day: Good Times - Finger Eleven

2003-06-17T00:03:00.000-07:00

OLD SCHOOL

SO hot out.

Time to bring out the shorts, and ladies bring out the bikinis......
Man no mater how much work sucks, nice weather makes up for it.
I had a great night of guitar playing, mixed with some pool action, and ended off with some OLD SCHOOL....love that movie.
Also, went to the mall, with truck, matt, trevor, paul, and amy, it was enjoyable, i just wish that chicks would stop checking me out, its embarrasing......
yeah i really wanna buy an electric, and a new car, and i wanna find that perfect girl...........*smack*

....right back to reality,

Song of the Day: Come Undone - HomeGrown

2003-06-15T15:33:00.000-07:00

Its Father's day and we are going to have dinner very soon.

Anne, I never thought that I would have the conversation I had with you yesterday, but you were a great help, and I am happy for you and mike and hope it all works out for the best.

Jeff, I havent seen you in a long time, because we are both working full time, and we just never seem to get a hold of each other, warped tour this year man, gonna be sweet.

Kendall, I am truly sorry for all the pain I caused you, I hope one day we can both forget about the past and become friends.

Matt, your mom is the coolest, your dad is diabetic.

Melissa, one year until vancouver, thats gotta be exciting, im sure ill see you lots this summer, CAMPING woooo

Claudio, you are a pimp. be proud, the white tux to grad, nice touch.

Pierre, we will have to have some tag team trampoline matches, make up for last year

To any other people that read my blog that i have missed, hope your summer is fun, and yeah.

Song of the Day: The Rock Show - Blink 182

BLINK 182
The Rock Show

Hanging out behind the club on the weekends
Acting stupid, getting drunk with my best friends
I couldn't wait for the summer and the Warped Tour
I remember it's the first time that i saw her...there

She's getting kicked out of school cause she's failing
I'm kinda nervous, cause I think all her friends hate me
She's the one, she'll always be there
She took my hand and that made it i swear

Because I fell in love with the girl at the rock show
She said "what?" and I told her that I didn't know
She's so cool, gonna sneak in through her window
Everything's better when she's around
I can't wait til her parents go out of town
I fell in love with the girl at the rock show

When we said we were gonna move to Vegas
I remember the look her mother gave us
17 without a purpose or direction
We don't owe anyone a fuckin explatation

I fell in love with the girl at the rock show
She said "what?" and I told her that I didn't know
She's so cool, gonna sneak in through her window
Everything's better when she's around
I can't wait til her parents go out of town
I fell in love with the girl at the rock show

Black and white picture of her on my wall
I waited for her call, she always kept me waiting
And if I ever got another chance I'd still ask her to dance
Because she kept me waiting

I fell in love with the girl at the rock show
She said "what?" and I told her that I didn't know
She's so cool, gonna sneak in through her window
Everything's better when she's around
I can't wait til her parents go out of town
I fell in love with the girl at the rock show

with the girl at the rock show
with the girl at the rock show
(I'll never forget tonight)
with the girl at the rock show......

2003-06-08T00:08:00.000-07:00

ALLISTER
Flypaper

Walk home
drowning these memories in the rain
Biting my lip
to transfer this pain

You're gone
and I'm still going through withdrawl
Next time around
I'll build a stronger wall

You broke my guard with guiltless eyes
Divide me like a virus from inside
And came back just to salt the wounds
Now thanks to you...

I start runnin now
(I start runnin, I'm runnin away from you)
I start runnin away
When I get too close I'm scared to stay
I start runnin now
(I start runnin, I'm runnin away from you)
I start runnin away
Now others pay for your mistakes

You needed
more attention than I gave
Instead of talking
you just played games

And smiled
as my whole world became unstitched
I wish I'd known
you would be such a heartless bitch

You broke my guard with guiltless eyes
Divide me like a virus from inside
And came back just to salt the wounds
Now thanks to you...

I start runnin now
(I start runnin, I'm runnin away from you)
I start runnin away
When I get too close I'm scared to stay
I start runnin now
(I start runnin, I'm runnin away from you)
I start runnin away
Now others pay for your mistakes

I start runnin now
I start runnin away
When I get too close I'm scared to stay
I start runnin now
I start runnin away
Now others pay for your mistakes

I start runnin now
(I start runnin, I'm runnin away from you)
I start runnin away
When I get too close I'm scared to stay
I start runnin now
(I start runnin, I'm runnin away from you)
I start runnin away
Now others pay for your mistakes

2003-06-03T15:22:00.000-07:00

Superman

Just wanted to post a song, it really sums up how i feel.

Might go to Vancouver for Warped Tour!!

EMINEM
Superman
(feat. Dina Rea)

[Dina Rea:]
Mmmhh

[Eminem:]
You high baby?

[Dina Rea:]
Yeahh...

[Eminem:]
Yeah?

[Dina Rea:]
hahaha..Talk to me...

[Eminem:]
You want me to tell you somethin?

[Dina Rea:]
Uh huh...

[Eminem:]
I know what you wanna hear...
'Cuz I know you want me baby I think I want you too...

[Dina Rea:]
I think I love you baby...

[Eminem:]
I think I love you too...
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Let's let our love unfurl.
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
come be in Shady's world...

[Dina Rea:]
oh boy you drive me crazy...

[Eminem:]
Bitch you make me hurl...

[Eminem:]
They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it bitch, babysit? you make me sick,
Superman aint savin shit, girl you can jump on shady's dick,
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her face,
I'm a different man, kiss my ass, kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my ass,
Don't put out? i'll put you out,
Won't get out? i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin shit,
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice? buy you ice,
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? fly through twice,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come, they go,
Saturday through sunday monday,
Monday through sunday yo,
Maybe i'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...

[Chorus:]
'Cuz I can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
I can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Your superman, your superman...

[Eminem:]
Don't get me wrong,
I love these hoes,
It's no secret,
Everybody knows,
Can't we fuck?
Bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes,
We'll be friends,
I'll call you again,
I'll chase you around every bar you attend,
Never know what kind of car i'll be in,
[Woman Screaming]
We'll see how much you'll be partying then,
You don't want that,
Neither do I,
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys,
Too much pride,
Between you and I,
Not a jealous man, but females lie,
But I guess that's just what sluts do,
How could it ever be just us two?
Never loved you enough to trust you,
We just met and I just fucked you,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...

[Eminem & Dina Rae Over Chorus 2x]

[Eminem:]
I know you want me baby,
I think I want you too...

[Dina Rea:]
I think I love you baby...

[Eminem:]
I think I love you too,
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Lets let our love unfurl,
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
Come be in shady's world...

[Dina Rea:]
Oh boy you drive me crazy...

[Eminem:]
Bitch you make me hurl.

[Eminem:]
First thing you said...

[Eminem As Women:]
I'm not phazed,
I hang around big stars all day,
I don't see what the big deal is anyway,
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me...

[Eminem:]
Ooh yeah girl run that game...

[Eminem As Women:]
Haily Jade...I love that name,
Love that tattoo...what's that say?
'rot in pieces' aww that's great...

[Eminem:]
First off you don't know Marshall,
At all so don't grow partial,
That's ammo for my arsenal,
I'll snap you off that bar stool,
There goes another lawsuit,
Leave handprints all accross you,
Good lordy-wody you must be blown off that water bottle,
You want what you can't have,
Ooh girl that's too damn bad,
Don't touch what you can't grab,
End up with two back hands,
Put Anthrax on a Tampax and slap you till you can't stand,
Girl you just blew your chance,
Don't mean to ruin your plans,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday Monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...

[Eminem & Dina Rae Over Chorus 2x]

[Eminem:]
I know you want me baby,
I think I want you too...

[Dina Rea:]
I think I love you baby...

[Eminem:]
I think I love you too,
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in Shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Lets let our love unfurl,
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
Come be in shady's world...

[Dina Rea:]
Oh boy you drive me crazy...

[Eminem:]
Bitch you make me hurl.

2003-05-28T11:28:00.000-07:00

Another Win

Thats right, another 500 bucks. Jeremy and I went last night and we won big.
So then we went to the 24 hour IGA and bought some shrimp and scallops and baby potatoes and strawberry shortcake.....it was so good.

I have had so many good meals lately, ive had steak three nights in a row, top sirloin, like 10 oz ones, so good!!

Now I had also been reading annes blog, and it seems that a "mystery" person has taken a liking to her.
I know it is Jeff, I just dont know why.

Dude, there is so many other girls, why go for my ex.

Also anne is leaving soon, but whatever, its up to you, if it is you jeff, you should have at least told me.

Song of the Day Fragile Happiness - Bodyjar

Fragile Happiness

Here today and on my way
It's time to make it all OK
You left me here I couldn't see solutions were in front of me

With this fragile happiness I'll start over today
I won't leave you here to suffer
It's not for everyone
I'd rather suffer for instead
Now that I have blown that cover
I have been suffering
If you're not suffering instead

Pain and observation meet
Reality's an easy street
Alone is not so hard to be
She's gone
Just gone away from me

With this fragile happiness...

There's no reason why you can't be happy with the things you have
There's no reason why you need me now Just have to learn to be alone

2003-05-15T08:01:00.000-07:00

Finally a day off work, that place is seriously driving me insane.

Yesterday was so dumb, since I am off today, I had to do 2x everything, fricking lazy people.

But in other news!!

I am leading in the hockey pool by 17 points!
I have won a grand 2! nights this week!
Its so nice out, and it makes life so much better.

Song of the day: Feed It - Bodyjar

BODYJAR
Feed It

Your telling me that your always Broken
And when your sick but you don't know why.
Your gonna be what you always hated
You've got something in your eyes.

Look now, Your throwing it away
Forget the benefits of today
Right now, its time to get away
You've got the reason you live your life everyday.

Gotta stay on a on G basis
Gotta feed it to let it go.
I wont abuse it, your own oasis
Half the weight and twice my lies

2003-05-02T22:13:00.000-07:00

Fall To The Ground

I am in a state of total confusion. I know its my own fault.

Why am I pushing love away, I will never understand.

All the things I said, you shouldnt have had to hear.

I dont deserve you, not after all this.

I can never say sorry enough to repair your pain.

2003-04-29T23:06:00.000-07:00

If I could only read your mind love

I am having the worst day ever.

I am so stupid.

SO STUPID!!!!!!!!!

hate myself.

2003-04-26T15:42:00.000-07:00

All I Wanted

We talk, we dont really share what we feel. We are selfish.
We care but it is hard to show from so far apart.
We are alone but in love

We let each other down
We have to hide all we want to show
We should never be apart

2003-04-20T22:55:00.000-07:00

Home Sweet Home

Back in Calgary, and it feels good to be back. Cranbrook was alright but i missed this city.
I think that im going golfing tomorrow, thats gonna be sweet, second time in like a weekend.

I love my bass, i missed it so much, yeah.

Question of the Day: What color should my next bass be?

Song of the Day: Somebody Hates Me - Reel Big Fish

REEL BIG FISH
Somebody Hates Me

i just made an enemy of someone i don't know
and they are upset about somethin' that i
must have done. it really doesn't make much
sense well i've got no statement in my defense
i know, no matter what, no matter who, no
matter what i do, somebody hates me and i
hate somebody too.
did you misunderstand
something that i did or was there one of my
jokes that you didn't get or do you think
you've got
the way i think all figured out.
what did i say, to make you feel i'm not cool
now?
i know, no matter what no matter who no
matter what i do, somebody hates me, and i
hate somebody too. i know its wrong, but i do
it to and i guess i should say, don't let it get
to you. i know, no matter what no matter who
no matter what i do somebody hates me and i
hate somebody too somebody like you.

2003-04-19T16:52:00.000-07:00

NUMBER 1

Thats right.

Who is number one in the hockey pool. ME!
Its sweet, I never thought that I would have a chance of winning. yeah!

Went golfing today, I actually did pretty good, I just gotta work on my putting. That is what killed me.

Turkey dinner tonight, its gonna be amazing, I love eating.

Yeah, BC would be better with some friends, it sucks.

Song of the Day: Good Enough - Bodyjar

2003-04-18T22:29:00.000-07:00

I just dont think I should drive

That is what I told my parents tonight. I am in BC right now,whoooo!
I just dont trust myself behind the wheel of their car anymore. All my bad car experiences have come when I am driving their car.
My first speeding ticket, my first car accident...it is juat trouble.

Anyway, 4 hour drive, I miss my bass, I miss my friends, it sucks.
Although my aunt had some homemade strawberry pie..mmmmmm so good.

I think that my dad, my uncle and I are going golfing tomorrow, I am gonna suck so bad.

Why is it when you sleep in super late you feel more tired then if you woke up really early? whats up with that?
*yawn*

Yeah ummm, thats all i got to say about today.

Later

Song of the Day: Kemp - Millencolin or Man or Mouse - Millencolin

2003-04-15T23:20:00.000-07:00

Useless Information

1. First Name: James
2. Middle Name: Joseph
3. Last Name: Graham
4. Nicknames: Jew, Tony Hawk, Jay, Guy, Dude, Stud Muffin,
5. City: Calgary
6. Age: 19
7. Guy or Gal: Guy
8. Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
9. Siblings: One too many
10. What are they like?: Girl, annoying
11. Pet(s): 2 dogs. Fish, had a bunny...
12. Hair Color: Dark Brown
13. Eye Color: Brown
14. Height: 6'1
15. What hand do you write with: right
16. Hair Length: umm ok?
17. Do you bite your nails?: sometimes
18. Do you think you are cute?: id say more studdy mixed with tony hawk
19. Do others think you're cute?: some.....hey whats up baby
20. Shoe size: 11

RELATIONSHIPS
21. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:.............girls are CRAZY
22. If so what is their name?:
23. Where do you shop the most?: mcdonalds
24. Do you think your fashion is cool?: its different
25. Do you have any piercing?: 1, sad i know
26. If not, what do you want pierced?: EYEBROW
27. Do you have a tattoo?: its invisable
28. If not do you want one, and what would it be?: something to do with JC or something

THE EXTRA STUFF:
29. Do you do drugs?: not anymore
30. Do you drink: im diabetic
31. Who are your friends?: Keith, Trevor, Berton, Beaner, Deanne, Kent, Dee, Jeremy, Kendall, hehe
32. What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: shampoo?
33. What sport(s) do you play: basketball, golf, soccer
34. What are you most scared of?: my bass being stolen
35. If you could go anywhere, where would it be?: Cayman Islands, i heard its like paradise
36. How often do you cut your toenails?: hold on let me check my calendar
37. What are you listening to right now?: nothin, but if i was it would be Gob - give up the grudge
38. Who are you talking to right now?: was talking to keith and deanne
39. What time is it?: 11:58
40. Do you have your own phone line?: yeah 1 900 diabetic
41. What's the last four digits of your phone number?: 8916
42. What shoes do you wear?: globe black and red ones to work, and circa blue and black (jamie thomas)
43. What clothes do you sleep in?: nothin
44. What kind car do you have?: 88 mustang
45. Who is the last person who called you? keith
46. Where do you want to get married?: calgary
47. Who is the hottest guy/girl in your school?: school would have been - katie robertson my crush
48.If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?: i would have a butt, and blue eyes
49. Who do you really hate?: i dislike drunks
50. What are the ugliest names?: Newton
51. Favourite Colour: red
52. What's your favourite number?: 3
53. Favourite Movie: Night at the roxbury, Old School
54. Favorite Candy: starburst
55. Brand: Sp/it
56. TV show: Hot/Not, hahaha no....8 simple rules
57. Food: Sandwiches made by me, chips
58. Fast food restaurant?: Arbys
59. Nail polish color: n/a
60. Subject in school: spare. mostly self appointed
62. Scent: freshly made donuts!
63. Bath or Shower?: shower
64. Teacher: the young hot substiute.......doh
66. Smoked?: yeah
67. Drank?: yeah
68. Got drunk?: nope, never will
69. Bungee Jumped?: nope
70. Went movie hopping: yeah, i saw fear dot com like 30 minutes, bourne identity 30 minutes, mr deeds, the ending, all for 5 dolars, it was chelseas idea
71. Broke any laws?: is public nudity a crime
72. Ran from the cops?: in a car
74. Made yourself throw up?: no
75. Gone skinny dipping?: ...............guess
76. Been In Love?: yep
77. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: nope

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF, WHEN YOU HEAR These WORDS:
78. Red: roses
79. Cow: milk
80. Pig: cops
81. Rubber: band

WHICH IS BETTER:
82. Barfing on your date or date barfing on you?: well if i was barfed on i would proabbly barf anyway
83. Have your Tonsils or your appendix removed?: nope
84. Coolest: Jeremy
85. The weirdest: me and deanne,
86. Funniest: Jeff
87. Smartest: deanne, is in like all AP
88. Happiest: Beaner
90. Sweetest: me im diabetic
91. Loudest: chelsea
92. Quietest: me
93. Silliest: Dee
94. Best Friends: Keith, Colter (friend in Califorina)
95. who do you go to for advise?: Keith, Deanne
96. Who knows all your secrets: no one

HAVE YOU EVER...
104. Eaten an entire pack of KD: just one?
105. Caused a car accident?: hahahahaha yes
106. Seen the ocean: seen it, I TOUCHED IT
107. Night or Day: Night
108. Chocolate Chip or mint Chip: sugar free
109. Ocean or lake: ocean
110. Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla, and did you know chocolate is good for the heart, and contains anto depressiants
112. Love or lust: depends
113. Silver or gold: Silver
114. Pencil or pen: pencil
115. Skirt or jeans: Jeans
116. Rose or tulip: rose

IN THE PAST 48 Hours, HAVE YOU..
117. Cried: nope
118. Bought Something: yeah
119. Worn a skirt?: nope
120. Gone for a walk: nope
121. Gone for a drive: everywhere
122. Gone out for dinner?: maybe...hmm
123. Taken a test?: i test my blood sugar all the time
124. Talked to an ex: yeah
126. Watched your favourite movie: one of them
127. Given someone a present: nope
128. Missed someone: yep
129. Hugged someone: nope
130. Kissed someone: nope
131. Danced with someone: nope
132. Had a nightmare: nope
133. Fought with your parents?: im an angel

THE FEELING SIDE:
134. What do you feel about the Ouija board: only for crazy people
135. Do u believe in yourself: yes
136. Worst feeling in the world: hunger
137. Best feeling in the world: when you know that the next day is gonna be perfect
138. Are you for world peace: yes
139. Are you a health freak: no
140. Do you have a crush on anyone?: yes
141. Who is your crush: ask me ill tell you

ALL QUESTIONS
142. Do you like filling these out?: kinda fun
143. How many people are you sending this to?: none
144. Who was the person who sent this to you?: read it
145: What do you think of the person that sent this to?: ?
146: Who will send it back: people

2003-04-14T20:55:00.000-07:00

Bloggin....woot

Hello to everyone, hope everyone's monday was as good as mine!......right
So glad that I am off work tomorrow, unforunalty it is supposed to snow, lovely.

Msn makes everything alright.

Question of the day: Why?
Song of the Day: Buildings Tumble - Mxpx (i have been told i sound just like him when i sing to this song)

MXPX
Buildings Tumble

Waking up is hard to do when no one loves you
Years pass by, that's something you have gotten used to

Some of us are dumb and blind and out of our minds
Walking passed each day through fields of land mines

Let the weak say I am strong
Let yourself say I was wrong
Let your heart move on
Let your heart move on

Wipe the drool up off your face and make your plans
The prison where you hang your head missed your demands

It's highly time, throw down your wine, put foolish things away
Don't forget, prepare your set, be true to your own way

Do you find yourself from day to day
Staring at a stranger's face?
As you find yourself to your dismay
Looking into your own face

2003-04-10T17:18:00.000-07:00

Mid-Grade Please

I didnt think that the type of gas that you use would really affect the speed and sound of your car. I was wrong, my car is like, well its like a different car.
I am gonna try premium next and i think that i will be in shock.

Work is dumb, but that is to be expected.

Question of the Day: Who is gonna win the Stanley Cup?
Song of the Day: Losing Grip - Avril

2003-04-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

mmm Diet Pepsi

Nothing better than a cold refreshing pop with chicken chow mein.

I know it's 11:15 and i'm eating, I was told not to eat carbs after 7 or else i will get fat. I am still waiting to see these results, I cant gain weight if I eat 24-7. I am getting poor from eating out so much. Every night it's like a different restaurant, and i'm dropping 10 bucks or 5 bucks. I really gotta stop.

One thing that I can never stop though is playing my bass. All my free time goes into that thing. Here is my list of songs:

Addicted - Simple Plan
Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous - Good Charlotte
Swing Swing - All American Rejects
I Hear You Calling - Gob
Bro Hymn - Pennywise

I also printed off tonight

The Last Song - TAAR
**** Authority - Pennywise
My Friends Over You - New Found Glory

It's just like my release, I can play my problems out, sing them out, I would never give up my bass now. It is like a part of me, I have yet to put a sticker on it, I just love the black and blue look.................*pauses to ponder*.........ahh.....anyway.

Question of the Day: New Found Glory or Simple Plan or Good Charlotte?
Song of the Day: I'm just a kid - Simple plan

2003-04-06T14:49:00.000-07:00

A 600 pound pig

That is what berton, mike, beaner, and jeremy's plan is. They bought this pig and are gonna keep it for like 18 months and then kill it and eat it. I am not taking any part in this, except for the actual eating of it. That will be one huge feast!

I played my bass when I woke up and after church, I like playing Lifestyles of The Rich and Famous, it's got a good beat, but it could use a longer harder chorus. I also bought an auto trader and I have found a beautiful RX-7 for 5800. Its white and has tinted windows, a new engine, yeah I want it.

Tonight is either floor hockey or basketball, then we are going to daveys house.

Song of the Day: Any simple plan
Question of the Day: Basketball or Floor Hockey?

2003-04-05T23:46:00.000-08:00

Find The Perfect Girl

That is what my friend Keith said to me tonight. I told him that its just so hard to keep trying and nothing working out. Then he said "well maybe the perfect girl will find you instead", is that possible. I'm going with Keith to his church tomorrow, I havent been in like months.

Tonight was alright, started off after work. Met up at Midnapore McDonalds at 6. Ate food, went toboggining for the first time ever. I love it, not as much as bowling or bass guitar, but its up there. Then we went back to my place for some hut tubbing and some NIGHT AT THE ROXBURY, and I didnt even have to request it. Then we watched some Hot or Not, so dumb, all the Hot people didnt win.

Tonight we Spring Ahead, YAY...................boo. Lose a frickin hour of good sleep. Ive also been having dreams lately, when i have dreams i get freaked out, dejavu is trippy.

Song of the Day: A song by reset with a sweet bass intro, no idea what the name is. (reset is the band simple plan before they became simple plan)
Question of the day: Single or Taken or Taken and looking?

2003-04-02T17:02:00.000-08:00

Strike Three Your Out
I got my hair cut today. Its kinda a different sytle in which i can use wax or gel, i kinda like it.

Im going to the hockey game tonight, Sharks taking on the Flames. Im not so much of a sharks fan since they traded Owen Nolan but oh well we got row 13 seats so I gotta go.

I am also now "officially" removed from Some Things are better left unsaid blog.
Im sure if i wanted to get back in I could though.
All I would have to do is just pretend that I was some guy from Canada who plays the bass and thinks that puppy dogs and rainbows are cool.

Whatever, this blog is way better anyway,

2003-04-01T17:40:00.000-08:00

She Hates Me
10 percent tuesday at IGA, always fun times all around.
I think that my first break was like 25 minutes opps......i havent had so much fun and worked so hard in awhile.

Also for anyone who doesnt already know, Kendall wants to kill me.
Like I think that I might have to actually get a bodyguard.
I dont get how she can hate a bass playing stud like me.
I've never really had anyone hate me before, its kinda a special feeling.
I think that all of this stupid drama that has been happening lately will probably inspire me to write a song.
Now that would be sweet, making money, playing bass, yeah.

Song of the Day: She Hates Me - Puddle Of Mudd

2003-03-31T17:40:00.000-08:00

True Emotion
I havent posted my feelings for a while on here.

High school drama for me was never as pathetic as it is for a certain group at bishop grandin.
Back stabbing and just looking for anyway to drag people down. I just don't see any point for it.

You cant believe everything everyone says. And really High school problems are all forgot as soon as you
graduate cause you wont see half the people anyway.

Song of the Day: Addicted - Simple Plan

2003-03-26T17:27:00.000-08:00

Work today, im still on the 9-5 thing. Its alright I guess.

Im feeling kinda sick, and I took some nyquil last night.

I was told at work that it has alcohol in it so that is why my blood sugar dropped to like a 2.

My friend graeme tuned my bass so now i can get back to that.

Song of the Day: Somewhere i belong - Linkin Park

2003-03-09T15:47:00.000-08:00

Searching For A Perfect Moment
I am seriously gonna start a countdown to the Hawaii trip. I am really hoping to leave in October with some friends, and just make some memories. I am not a big fan of pictures, but I think that this trip would use like 100000000 rolls of film.

Friday and Saturday were fun, Friday as you know Jeffs car got broke. Then we had Mike's party, made a boob cake, which no one would eat (Jeff made it).

Saturday I worked and then went to the mall, went to Keiths and played Halo (amazing game) for like 3 hours.

Today I worked and now i am talking to Pierre about Halo.

Plan for tonight most likely will be to go to Jokers for wings.

peace

Question Of The Day: Love or Lust?

Song of the Day: Better off Dead - Sum 41 (stuck in my head all day)

SUM 41
Better Off Dead

What happened to you
You've played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I'm following the same

But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

[Chorus:]
Now I'm in over my head
with something I said
Completely misread
I'm better off dead
And now I can see
I think it could be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me

It's none of my concern
Don't look to me because I don't believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I've met our makers they don't even know your name

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
This came long before
Those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare

What's with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one plans for it to blow up in their face

Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces

[Chorus]

Over my head
Better off dead

Over my head
Better off dead

2003-03-07T15:16:00.000-08:00

The Tempo
Poor Jeff, his car is broken for the weekend. I just phoned his house and I guess that the water pump belt busted and then the water pump broke, and then the car over heated.

I woke up at the regular day off time of 2 pm, oh yeah. I kinda feel like I wasted a day, but oh well, better then working.

Must buy bodyjar cd, so good,

Question of the Day: Trouble in Paradise or The Sp/it Personalities?

Song of the Day: Make It Up - Bodyjar

2003-03-06T17:07:00.000-08:00

When The Day Seems Never Ending
is because your working overtime.

Carla was "sick" today. Yeah right. So cue mass panic of trying to get everything done so that I can get up to the front and help package.
I ended up being watching the counter from 3:30 to 5. Tiffany (a cashier that quit) was shopping so she came by and we talked for a bit.
Other than that, I stood there, took 2 orders, gave kids cookies.

Boring, so boring.

The roads are so bad right now, I hate driving a stick, and getting stopped on a hill. Then you got a person right behind your bumper, so if you
go back at all, its trouble.

Think i'm going bowling tonight, gonna try and beat 237! Wish me luck.

Question of the day: Donut or Long John?

Song of the Day: Olympic - Millencolin

MILLENCOLIN
Olympic

Could it be I'm a lonely one
that made everything so upside down now?
Could it be all the lies I told that gave
nightmares to me after an olympic day?
you said everything was fine
but I saw you through
and I knew that I was just as bad as you

Never said I would give you up
but if I must than tell me why now
never said I believed in all those things I've heard
about you from those rumors now
I thought everything was fine
but you proved me wrong
and I was taken by surprise

Don't like me, don't like me
don't you know I'm good for nothing
don't like me, was what you told me when I called you up
Don't like me, don't like me
don't you know I'm good for nothing
don't like me, whatever I may say to make you feel that way

Could it be I'm a lonely one
that turned everything so upside down now?
Could it be that you told me that you still loved me
that made me change so quickly now
I heard me when you called

Don't like me, don't like me
don't you know I'm good for nothing
don't like me, was what you told me when I called you up
Don't like me, don't like me
don't you know I'm good for nothing
don't like me, even though inside I know I want you too
didn't want to tell you what to do

2003-03-05T22:21:00.000-08:00
I Love Who?
ok, so here we go...........

I am left, not knowing what is to come. Fate waits for moments to pass, for decisions to happen. I wish I knew anything, but i'm blind. Only you know the outcome, now I just wait.

Question of the Day: Favorite First Date Activity?

Song of the Day: Disease - Matchbox 20

2003-03-05T15:05:00.000-08:00
Pass me the bread
You have got to love the calm after the storm.

Yesterday was 10% tuesday, the busiest day of the month. Production is like tripled, but we had bad sales, so today was so slack.

I spent most of the day being taught how to make tea biscuits, and cinnamon buns, and how to make the donut dough.

I could be a baker, but I dont know if I could do it for 30 years.

Yeah, umm i wanna buy the "how it works" cd by bodyjar, amazing cd.

2003-03-04T15:56:00.000-08:00
One Way Ticket To Paradise
cries for help will soon be silenced
as another teen turns to violence
when will all the problems end
cause i dont want to pretend

Tell me a difference, if there is one at all
that separates the short from the tall
no reason to fight until you show
me what is wrong and right

Its coming back, slowly my lyrics will come. Also I had an awesome idea today.

I am gonna move to Maui for a year. I decided that I want to be able to look back at my youth and be like look what I did. That was the most fun ive ever had.

I just need like 5 people to go with, so I am now taking resumes and the best 5 will be selected......j/k. I'll be lucky if I can find one person, but I really wanna go, unless things around here start to get better, cause

the future is looking a lot like the past.
Everyday just like the last

oh baby! im on a roll.

whoooooo! im in a good mood, but like a quiet, low blood sugar kind.
I wanna get another piercing!!! yeah, hmmm someone tell me what i should pierce, eyebrow or cartlidge again.

Question of the Day: One part of your body you couldnt live without, (and i dont mean actually live, so dont say brain, or heart)

Song of the Day: Fall to the Ground - Bodyjar (Also from the How It Works cd) p.s. BUY THIS CD!!

BODYJAR
Fall To The Ground

Everyday, he plays the game purse
He's got them runnin around
will they fall to the ground every time

Life inside, he's got something to hide
Right now he's angry, denied
with a reason so don't wonder why

your past your prime

Know what they said is what I've done
Killed my respect for everyone (you cant be sure, you never know)
I've come this far
Not goin, back this time

Take a gun, there only there for fun
It must be a movie or song
If its right or its wrong, it a sign

Point the blame, Violence in life's the same
And with no reason for that
we'll just make up the facts every time

make fun the crime

Hey! You've got your own opinion
You've got your own opinion
You decide.

Not goin, back this time.

2003-03-03T14:52:00.000-08:00
*yawn*

Just woke up at 2, seriously my days off are a waste of time, all i do is sleep.

I hoping that Jeff is over his whole being half dead thing. That was pretty crappy.

So it's monday afternoon. Hmmm if anyone is doing anything tonight, ill probably be up for it.

Leave a not in the shoutouts or just gimme a call.

Question of the Day: What is your favorite kind of cereal?

Song of the Day: Good Enough - Bodyjar (From How It Works cd) *hint* *hint* pierre

BODYJAR
Good Enough

You tell yourself that you're not good enough
You don't deserve it.
And you got plans to keep it underground
I understand it well
Its all, I'm ten foot tall I watch them all revolve around me
Its like I said we make things happen fast but never make them last.

It's always the same
And there's no one to blame
Keep it bold if you want em to be there.

I wanted to say
Here and gone in a day
Now its old now its over repeated.

He tells the world that he's not good enough
He knows he should be
I know it takes some time to underline, its makin sense now
When all along it's just a dream and all I hear means nothin to me.
Don't sell it short you'll make it harder for you
Keep makin things seem right.

2003-03-03T00:05:00.000-08:00
so im sure that you all know about how i have been kinda depressed as of late.

well, I had a talk with someone today, and somehow they brought back the happy james. I dont know why I was so sad, but I totally feel better now, and I am gonna do my best to stay this way.

I had visitors at work today, this group of hot chic.......haha i mean, yeah Keith and Trevor came by to see what I was up to. Keith was totally checking out Desaree, who has a boyfriend, but Keith insisted that I tell her that she is hot for him. Done and Done, she giggled, yeah anyway.

I caught up with Keith later on, and we picked up Berton. Then we picked up some McDonalds and went to the Casino. Its an addiction, but a good one cause I won 4o bucks!! so im up 50! Anyone wanna go out for dinner. Not that im treating, but yeah.

After the Casino, we went to Jokers as always. Kendall was working, but Keith couldnt work his "magic", cause Christy was there and she still likes Keith, so it would have been awkward. We ate wings and Nachos and watched some buffy, i think that it was a new one, cause the wolf guy came back.

ummm yeah now im home, off tomorrow,

Question of the Day: If you could change on thing about yourself what would you change? (answer in shoutouts)

Song of the Day: Girls Not Grey - AFI

2003-03-01T13:54:00.000-08:00

who was it that started this life
to torture us with pain and strife
to lead us on with false hope and trust
and not tell us the difference between love and lust

Relationships fading away into the past
no one promised that it would last
its only when its over
that you realize what you had

Memories of you and me
what's to come and what has been
footprints left on my heart
so you are with me when we are apart

who was it that decided to end
my time with a girl which was more than a friend
we shared a true bond that felt so strong
i hope she'll remember me after im gone

memories of her are still strong in my mind
she is a girl that is one of a kind
try to give up on the feelings inside
but its like im being denied

2003-03-01T11:10:00.000-08:00
Sometimes it is just better to stay home. To bad that I didnt use this advice last night.

Not that anything bad happened, just could have caught up on sleep instead of going to bed at 3 am!

Ok so Keith calls me at like 9:15, and tells me "hey james sup, i got your message, i wanna go and see Cradle 2 the grave at 10:15". I agree to this and leave my house around 9:45. Turns out that Keith's mom thought that it was in the cheap theater. its not.

So we go to Boston pizza.......this is when i should have gone home. Keith and some guy named Jeff, order a Team Pitcher of Canadian. This is a huge amount of beer, and is supposed to take 4 people to drink it. Well, with a little help from Kendra, they finish in about half an hour. So now we have a drunken keith, and we are heading to the Casino. Keith is making phone calls on his cell phone to lots of people, leaving messages in an weird accent. Matt Beauchamp (another diabetic), calls Keith back and says that he is at Jokers. Well Keith asks if Kendall is working, and she is.

"JAMES!!!" "We have to go to Jokers!!".

So I turn around and call Christy and Kendra and tell them to meet us at Jokers. There was a live band playing named Silly Wrabbit. They played a lot of punk covers and the bassist had a 5 string. I was in awe, he was just walking around playing and talking to people. I can't even sing and play.

We hung around there for a little, like until 2. Drove people home and finally went to bed.

Hopefully a shower will get me out of this daze,

Song of the Day: Superman - Goldfinger

2003-02-28T19:47:00.000-08:00
For some reason, im still at home. I thought tonight woudl be full of adventure and chaos, but these things have yet to arise. It's only 8:30 so still plenty of time to cause trouble, i only wish that i had an idea. Keith should be calling me back anytime, he is just at Southland Leisure Center. He is a youth group leader at his church and for the activity he took the kids to SLL. Later tonight the plan is to go and see Cradle to the Grave. For some reason it got put straight into the cheap theatre? It's not really my choice of a movie, but it doesnt look at that bad.

I just ate so much food..........trying to pack on some pounds. People at my work crack jokes about me eating like 3 sandwiches and how i cant gain a pound. I say "hey i got three legs to feed." *winks at anne (damn I cant wink)*.............anyway..

I added some more links, i want to have pictures and stuff but it takes so much energy and brain power.

Yeah, so if anyone is bored and reading this, gimme a call.

2003-02-28T16:23:00.000-08:00
So I didnt post about last night cause I ha dto get that off my chest. So here is what happened...

Im sitting around watching some tv, nothing of much is on so I decide to call Keith. We decide to go down to Jokers and grab some food and phone people. Keith has a crush on one of the waitresses. Her name is Kendall, she's a cutie, totally nice and everything. Unforunatly she wasnt working, so it took like half an hour just to get a plate of nachos. Keith called people but most people were working or not home.

So we killed some time watching some highlights of hockey and basketball, then headed off to the Casino. Frank sissions was so busy though, so we had to go to cash casino. We both started with 20 bucks, i was up to like 50 at one time, but i left with 30. Keith lost 15, but then did really good and won 80.

Now the funniest part of the night.

Since we did not bad, we decided to go for a victory Tim Hortons. On the way there, we saw a nice Jaguar. A newer sparkling blue speciman, we caught up to it. We looked over and saw it was two girls. After checking them out, and racing down the road a little, Keith tells me " i cant roll down my window! its broken!" Well that was not to good, but not thinking i just say "just do it man come on". So Keith rolls it down and of course it gets stuck down, but he still yells " we just won at the casino!! come with us to Tim Hortons". They told us that they they couldnt cause they had to get home. They might have been like 16, but meh. I was so funny after cause Keith is like "dude its freezing and im driving with my window down". hahaha. whoooooooooooo, to much fun.

i need to get to sleep
or wake up either one

Song of the Day: Tomorrow - HomeGrown

HOME GROWN
Tomorrow

Awake at ground zero.
Another day wasting away.
Nothing seems to matter.
'Cause nothing's ever changed.
California dreamin'.
Has never meant this much to me.
When living in this nightmare.
Comes so easily.
Holding on when I don't belong.
If this is right then I can't go wrong.
Holding on.
But I know right now I'll never make it.
Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow.
And figure out where to begin.
Then maybe I won't feel so hollow.
But I'm pretty sure that I'll be sleeping in...
Days seem like they're decades.
And minutes pass like years gone by.
Still I sit here wasting the time of my life.
California dreamin'.
Will never mean that much to me.
And you'll never understand how it feels to be.
Holding on when you don't belong.
When you don't feel right but it's all you've got.
Holding on.
But I'm pretty sure I'll never make it.
Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow.
And figure out where to begin.
Then maybe I won't feel so hollow.
It's 3AM.
And it feels like there four walls are caving in.
Please tell me I'm not alone.
'Cause I'm tired of sleeping in.
Wait, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow.
And figure out where to begin.
Then maybe I won't feel so hollow.
But I'm pretty sure that I'll be sleeping in...

2003-02-27T23:46:00.000-08:00
Easiest way to solve a problem is to escape from your house. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm giving all that I have and its just not good enough. I just want a straight up answer to my questions. Ok im sorry people but im gonna have a little pity fest. So be prepared.

Im suck at a job that i dont mind. Only thing is that it has no future, or at least one that I want. It has excellent benifets that pay for like almost all of my insulin and stuff like that. So i cant just get up and leave. I so wanna get out of Calgary. I wanna start a new life, go where no one knows who I am. I just wish that there was a way to do it. But ive been cursed with this disease! it controls my every thought, every movement, every desire. Ive been told that only the strong ones have to deal with hardship like this because we can handle it. Also what doesnt kill you can only make you stronger.

Im sick of hardship, and i cant take much more of this day to day, always the same anymore.

Im sick of putting effort into things that I know arent gonna work out. Im sick of putting hours into a job that I know is not gonna matter down the road. Im using all of my time and getting nothing back. Thats why i want a fresh start.

Why cant people just have a soulmate, someone that is pre picked for them and they know who it is. All they have to do is just meet and they know that its love. Not feeling empty inside, not feeling alone when your surrounded by people, not feeling weak, not having too much of not enough.

This sucks cause i know that no one can fix my problems. I just dont want to point fingers anymore. I dont want to feel like this.

One way ticket to..............

Midnight Snack Song: There Is - Boxcar Racer

2003-02-27T17:51:00.000-08:00
...........................anywhere.

NO USE FOR A NAME LYRICS

"Chasing Rainbows"

Just heard the news today, let yourself down once again
Trusted your feelings in a place that no one goes
Will you do anything, to satisfy your so-called friend?
There's something you ought to know, before you explode

All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows
Trusting those around you is an easy thing to do
I'm not saying don't believe in someone that you don't know
Just don't go on thinking that the whole world tells the truth

It's all fucked up, being reserved and quiet
She doesn't understand the message that you send
Don't give it all away somewhere, someday there's someone
Who can replace that state of mind, you never give it time (never)

All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows
Letting everybody crawl inside your heart and mine
Kicking you is easy when you're down that's where the weak know
To release their anger on someone who will not try
To stand up, and give them a fight

NO USE FOR A NAME LYRICS

"Always Carrie"

When I'm awake at night, sometimes I picture you
And hear those words again you said, "I'm leaving"
I couldn't hold you down and not expect that you would drown
I'm a clown, but no one's laughing

Maybe you're from another planet, one I want to invade
It's all been said (it's all been said)
To me you're dead (to me you're dead)
And it's time you turn your page

I'm not sure what it was that led us down a dead-end road
Some of those signs can be quite deceiving
I knew your favorite things, didn't know that one of them was someone else
I'm done believing

Someday there will be understanding
Everyday is a tragedy
It's me you blame (it's me you blame)
But it's the shame (but it's the shame)
That you will always carrie, that wou will always carrie
That you will always carrie

2003-02-27T15:35:00.000-08:00
This has to be the weirdest weather, its like nice one minute then you get up in the morning and there is so much snow. What is up with this crazy city.

Also why are parents so hard to get a long with. Seems like they are never satified with me. At least my dad that is. I just get home from work and all that I get to hear is "the dishwasher is full, sidewalk needs shovelling". Thats nice, how about you give two seconds to relax, whatever, i cant wait to move out. Sure ill miss the home cooked meals and the free internet access, but to be free and do what i want when i want is so worth the sacirifice.

I have also found myself slipping into a routine. Same thing over and over everyday, makes life pointless. What reason is there to try today when you know that its gonna be the same as yesterday. I cant wait until April. So many things are happening. Like Mike from Comox is coming up, some of my friends wanna go back to Vegas again, bling bling. Also vegas has strip malls so you can get clothes for dirt cheap. I will be styling in so much split clothes its not even funny.

alright im out.

Song of the Day: Get Free - The Vines

2003-02-26T21:11:00.000-08:00
today was my day off, felt weird sleeping in til 1:30 on wednesday.

Im learning to play the song addicted by Simple Plan on my bass. Its a pretty easy song, and i almost got it down.

I went to see the doctor today at like 3:00, its a new family doctor and she seems nice. She said that I have to go to a eye doctor once a year to make sure that i dont lose my sight. That would suck, if i go blind how could i fry donuts........right.

Song of the Day: Saddest Song - No Use For A Name

2003-02-25T21:13:00.000-08:00
Looking for a reason
or just someone to blame
for the fact that my problems
end up the same

my lyrical output is totally lost, i got nothin.

2003-02-24T16:47:00.000-08:00
First of all to Matt sorry for the lack of posting lately, but the computer in my house has been quite hard to get time on.

Now to last night...........
Phoned Jeff, that was a no go, he was with his girlfriend so yeah. Phone my friend Keith, he has an idea to go toboganning. It just didnt work out though, because it was like minus 30, and it would be freezing cold. So we decided to go to Starbucks and meet Chelsea for a coffee. I never have liked coffee, until Kendall made me try her Mocha, now im addicted. And since coffee is like 98% water, if i stay away from the whipping cream, my blood sugar will not even be affected. How sweet is that!

So well we were enjoying some over priced water, the idea of talisman park (formally known as Lydnsey Park) was thrown around. Most sunday nights some people go there and either go in the hot tub or play basketball for an hour. After nine its only a toonie, so you cant really beat that. The only ting is that there is WAY WAY to many people there and its not enjoyable anymore.

So that idea was scraped. It's now about 8:45 so I say "how about watching 40 days and 40 nights". Keith and Chelsea go for that idea so we head back to my house. When we got there we were really surpised to find my family all in bed already. Yeah they are party animals....

We go downstairs, Chelsea adrimes my bass for a little while and I just grin. We watch about 3/4 of the movie before it is 10:30 and Keith's cell starts ringing off the hook. "People that went to Talisman are going to Jokers" said Keith. So after I convince Keith to drive so that I can...............drink, (yes you read that correct) we haed to Jokers to meet up with everyone.

Keith was not to impressed to see his 2 day ex there but what can ya do. Also I was surprised to see Stacie there, we waved but didnt really talk cause I knew that all my friends would have been like who is that and so on. Yeah but on to the best part of the night.

Alcohol!! now i know that all of you are thinking "hey" what the heck, James never drinks. For some reason I just felt like a drink.....or two. Yeah umm I also had Nachos, and they were good. Played some buck hunter, its a arcade game in which you have to hit the running buck and not hit a doe. Berton was the best, but i was not really ay 100%, so yeah it wasnt fair.

We stayed there until like 12:15, then Keith gave me a ride home and I tried to workout, but I just got a stomachache.

Midnight Snack Song: Wrong or Right - Whippersnapper

WHIPPERSNAPPER LYRICS

"Wrong Or Right"

You used to think you knew it all
You used to stand so proud and tall
until the day you found that everything can change
just take it easy, take it one step at a time
If you can't have everything
you don't want anything at all
Is this wrong or right?
In all the questions that you ask
a silent longing for the past
that's when you say
things were the way
they should've been made
peace with everyone,
everyone except yourself
don't try to lie to me
I know you all too well
Is this wrong or right?
Someone is watching this other life,
this part of me (x3)

*insert about 6 hours of sleep here*

So now im trying to wake up for work and im not feeling so good. Stupid Andy is working though and if i call in sick im dead.

Of course I do the responsible thing and go to work. It was pretty crappy as usual. Andy gives Terry and I all the work to do while he tries to figure out why he is such a jerk. We only did half of the work though, we are plannin on starting a rebel against the powers that be, except not Rob (the bakery manager), so just Andy. Rob is a cool guy, he slacks so bad and gets away with it. He just bought a new electic guitar so we talk about how we are learnin and stuff. Its nice when he is working cause he is always late so if I come in late he jokes and says like "hey you almost beat me".

Yeah now im just about to go and get ready for tonight, im staying away from Jokers though.

Song of the Day: Always Carrie - No Use for a Name

2003-02-22T14:12:00.000-08:00
Ahhh....second day off, second day of waking up at noon.

Today is gonna be a chillaxing day, where i can get all of the things done that I never have time to do. Hopefully some lyrics and some laundry, maybe some cleaning but that is doubtful.

Last night was pretty fun. Went to chinook to go bowling, with pierre, jeff, mike and melissa. We had to wait a little while before we could start but it was worth it. My firts game was my best game that I have ever bowled. I got 237!!! oh yeah, i think that im gonna be a professional bowler. After the bowling, we went back to Jeffs and watched Rules of Attraction, an ok movie, but had WAY to much gay people and guys kissing for my liking. Before that though we went to Rogers and they have The new guy on VHS for 5.99. Everyone should go and buy it, come on any movie with Tony Hawk is worth buying.

Song of the Day: What I like about you - Suicide Machines

2003-02-21T00:08:00.000-08:00
Havent posted for a few days but i didnt have anything to say.

now im off for two days, that is gonna be sweet, hello chillaxing, and bass guitar.

Tonight was a alright night, went to a sort of whose line thing at Grandin, one guy was really funny. Saw Kendall, didnt talk at all, I think that shes is mad, and has right to be, just know Kendall, its nothing that you did, I just need some thinking time.

Met some of Lesley's friends, one of them kept on poking me, i have no idea why, quite weird. Then went to Jeff's ate some pizza, watched a movie, which kinda really sucked (say it aint so), i give it a 3 out of 10.

ok so im posting 3 songs for the days ive missed,

The 18th - Song of the Day: Seein Red - Unwritten Law

UNWRITTEN LAW
Seein' Red

I'm seein red
Don't think you'll have to see my face again
don't have much time for sympathy
Cuz it never happened to me
You feelin blue now
I think you bit off more than you could chew
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your...
So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When theres no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
And foolish lies well can't you see
I tried to compromise
Cuz what you say ain't always true
And I can see the tears in your eyes
And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head
And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again
So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You Feelin down I don't know where i'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice,
And all I wanna hear is your voice...

The 19th - Song of the Day: Addicted - Simple Plan

SIMPLE PLAN
Addicted

I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
BUt I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you

The 20th - Song of the Day Ballad for the Lost Romantics

NEW FOUND GLORY
Ballad For The Lost Romantics

I've grown sick
I've gotten older
I finally have an audience to ignore
I can yell all I want
But you still can't hear me
I'm punching myself out
Holding in my breath
I can take this lightly
Throwing up the words that I said to you
I always do what I'm not supposed to
Here's to us fools
That have no meaning
I tip my glass to you
Let's toast the night away to friends
And forget about tomorrow
I might say things you don't want to hear
But someday you might care and I won't be there
No I won't be there here's to us fools
That have no meaning
I tip my glass to you
Let's toast the night away to friends
And forget about tomorrow
I'm punching myself out
Holding in my breath
I can yell all I want
Throwing up the words that I said to you
I always do what I'm not supposed to
Here's to us fools that have no meaning
I tip my glass to you
Let's toast the night away to friends
And forget about tomorrow.

2003-02-17T22:32:00.000-08:00
Family day, time and a half pay, sweet.

Tony hawk was on the simpsons last night, that was awesome. Totally awesome.

Today i totally was in like auto pilot and just finished all my work so fast. I was off at 1.

Nothing exciting to say about tonight, played some nhl 2k3, talked on the phone, had spaghetti, played some bass, tv, now time to hit the hay.

Song of the Day: Tragic Flaw - Whippersnapper

2003-02-16T15:07:00.000-08:00
Its cold, and now I have to park my car outside. Great!

I know that people are burning some of their grade 12 work tonight, but i hope that it's not super freezing.

I helped my dad today with the charger, we moved it into the garage and he is gonna try and use that car. I wish him good luck, that car almost killed me, like a thousand times. It also does hold some memories, Keith and I drove to Lethbridge in that car, cooked pizza pops on the heater, and took pictures all the way down there. I still have them for anyone that wants to take a look. It was also used for one New Years Eve when Liza, Trevor, Amy and me had to sleep in it cause it was like so late and no one wanted to drive. It also was super fun, cause it had (probably still does), that when to take a sharp turn at an intersection, you turn the steering wheel as hard as you could to the direction your turning. Then you floor the gas and after a little while, a huge dark cloud of smoke would come out the exhaust. We would get some totally stupid preps behind us, with their Civic's and what not, and just smoke them out so bad. Funniest thing ever, one time when I tried this with Keith and Trevor in the car with me. Instead of the smoke going out the exhaust, somehow it came into the car through the vents. We all start yelling and laughing, I pull over and we all fall out of the car, just laughing so hard. Oh man...good times.

Oh and one last story, this would have been like at least 3 years ago. Keith, Beaner (Graeme), and I were out getting some fast food. We pull into an empty field so that we can all eat our food and decide what the plan is for the night. Keith was driving the car, cause he didnt have a car yet, so I let him take over. Then we all stop talking and Beaner says "did you hear something". It was probably like 10 or 11 at night so we are like "umm....no". He says "Guys it sounds like footsteps", we all sit very still no saying a word, to try and hear this noise. Then we do and it sounds like someone is running towards the car. We all Yell "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh". Keith trys to start the car but it wont go. We are all yelling "come on man, come on". Finally it starts and we get out of there so fast. We drive around for a little after, trying to calm down, we all think that it was stupid and we start laughing. Then the car dies. It was an automatic so it couldnt stall, Beaner and I still think that Keith somehow turned it off but we dont know how. We stop and start the car again, and then go to take them home. We turn onto James Mckevitt road and then go over the traintracks. The car stalls on the tracks. We are like "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH", "WE ARE IN A DEATH TRAP". We did get it started again, but that was such a weird night.

The mustang, hasen't made a road trip yet I dont think? It really should though, but only 2 people could fit in there for a long period of time.

Well, im just gonna burn some cds and then head out, hopefully ill see all you guys later tonight, call anne or scott on their cell phones if you wanna be in on the burning.

Song of the Day: What To Do - Gob

2003-02-15T23:28:00.000-08:00
Just got back from seeing National Security. Not a bad movie.

I just found out that Keith and Christy were dating but broke up. Christy just laid into Keith tonight though, I felt so bad for him cause she was brutal. She had this look in her eye and it could kill I swear.

Yeah, they dated for two days, I wish that I could explain more, but for people that dont know them it's tough.

Also went to Peter's Drive In, their Large Fries, are so huge. So we just threw them at peoples cars.

Overall a great night, Now sleep oh yeah!

Midnight Snack Song: Bro Hymn - Pennywise

2003-02-15T17:03:00.000-08:00
Oh man, work on saturdays has now become an all time low.

My asst. manager just let into me like nothing else, i almost walked out, he is such a jerk. Ok so Valentines week was super busy and "andy" asked me if I had any extra time if i could make up some chocolate dipped strawberries. I said "sure", not knowing that I had signed a death certificate. I guess that I was supposed to have extra time no matter what. He made me say sorry for not doing the strawberries, and just yelled at me more after anyway. He is from Edmonton so he was cursed, but come on man, take a chill pill.

Also yesterday was alright. I hung out with some of my friends that I hadent seen for awhile. I guess that Kendall was looking for me. She said that she couldnt do anything though, so I told my friends I would hang out with them.

Now I just wanna relax as usual, maybe watch 40 days and 40 nights.

Song of the Day: Ultra Blue - Allister

THRICE
Ultra Blue

Unabashedly pursue,
the Truth that we cannot deny
A revelation shining through,
orchestration Adonai
A revolution ultra-blue,
and a melodic battle cry
And though you say there'll be no coup,

we'll never know unless we
Try to see it through,
and find a different point of view,
one where faith is not taboo
And we'll all learn to see the world as new

Sometimes a belief held true,
is proved to be an outright lie
But it seems we always knew,
in some unspoken lullaby
I'll see you at the rendezvous,
we'll raise our voices to the sky
And though it's said there'll be no coup,

we'll never know unless we
Try to see it through, and find a
Different point of view,
one where faith is not taboo
And we'll all learn to see the world as new

2003-02-13T15:43:00.000-08:00
I feel amazing right now. For the few hours I am problem free, and don't have to think about working tomorrow, cause I am finally off. I got a diet pepsi and a bag of rice chips, and am getting ready to sit down and play some ps2.

Total relaxing, no effort of any kind....unless its bowling.

Typing is not wort......whatever.

Song of the Day: Racecars - Allister

ALLISTER
Racecars

i met this girl the other day
sitting alone on the wednesday train
i said, "what's wrong? you look so sad."

she said she's got something inside
that she's not willing to confide
so i said, "could i give some free advice?"

"don't worry bout your problems now, baby,
cause it just don't matter when it comes down to the fact.
everybody's got problems now, baby,
and life's too short to keep them bottled up inside."

cause i know
that life is like a racecar speeding down this one way street
that'll go
anyway
it feels like heaven down this one way street
cause i know
everything will be fine

i met this guy the other day
sitting alone on the sunday train
dressed up with nowhere left to go

he said, "if there's one thing that i've learned,
through all these cigarettes i've burned,
you've got to stop and look around."

he said that hindsight's clearer than a crystal ball
if he had a chance to stop and do it all over again
cause when you're waiting for the sounds of the gavel
you don't want it to end with a fistfull of regrets inside

cause i know
that life is like a racecar speeding down this one way street
that'll go
anyway
it feels like heaven down this one way street
cause i know
everything will be fine

cause i know
that life is like a racecar speeding down this one way street
that'll go
anyway
it feels like heaven down this one way street
cause i know
that life is like a racecar speeding down this one way street
that'll go
anyway
it feels like heaven down this one way street
cause i know
everything will be fine

2003-02-11T23:11:00.000-08:00
I just saw the movie 8 Mile.

Song of the Day: Lose Yourself - Eminem

2003-02-11T19:24:00.000-08:00
Just got back from may haircut. I feel about 100% better, I think that I lost 10 pounds.

On the way home, it was insane, I seriously saw 20 sex cars! Why does this never happen when if really playing, that would be sweet. It's like a half hour drive to where i get my haircut but I think that it is worth it.

Had another EXCELLENT day at work. Cutting strawberries, for 2 hours, it gets quite repetative. Stayed for the full day again, so my next paycheck should be not to shabby. I need a huge paycheck, so that I can afford what I got planned for Valentine's day. hehehehe, Kendall be afraid.

Only two days till my day off, Only two day till my day off, ...........................

Song of the Day: Countdown - No Use For A Name

NO USE FOR A NAME
Countdown

Another home is lost from someone who was poor
Another body found for the government to ignore
Another cop caught beating up on innocence
Another law that seems to make no fucking sense
Natural disaster is just something we don't need
Another person tested positively to H.I.V.
Another mountain side that we cannot see
Another politician's life remains a mystery

Newspaper headlines, do they tell us what is right, or what is wrong?
I wanna know exactly what the fuck is going on
The media has built a fortress all around our minds
Will I see it broken before I lay down and die

The clock is winding down
Just a matter of time until it comes here to this town
Countdown - countdown
Countdown - countdown

Another wall is built between color and race
Another wrong decision about peace is made
Another chemical is dumped into the sea
Another fact is not exactly what you read
Another piece of land that just could not be saved
Another education that could not be paid
Another killer in the street is roaming free
Another day, another pain, another misery

Newspaper headlines, do they tell us what is right, or what is wrong?
I wanna know exactly what the fuck is going on
The media has built a fortress all around our minds
Will I see it broken before I lay down and die

The clock is winding down
Just a matter of time until it comes here to this town
Countdown - countdown
Countdown - countdown

I've got a feeling, I've got a bad feeling inside
I've got a feeling, I've got a bad feeling inside
I've got a feeling, I've got a bad feeling inside
I've got a feeling, I've got a feeling, I've got a bad feeling inside

2003-02-10T16:34:00.000-08:00
We'll wait for forever
but forever will never come

That is my lyrical imput for today.

That pretty much sums up my day at work. Stayed extra for some overtime today. I even didnt take my last break, what a hard worker am I.

More like moron, I put so much effort in to that job, and just get yelled at.

Also one of the managers today asked me how I liked working in the Deli. I DONT WORK IN THE DAMN DELI. Way to know your staff, useless old people i tell ya. If your not over the age of 40 you dont matter to them.

On a happier note, I made Heart shaped donuts today and then I got to decorate them. That wasted a good hour of my day. I need some good saying to but on them so anyone with ideas please post them. All mine today were like "Be Mine" and "I love you". I wanted to write "Bend Over" and "suck me beautiful", but then im sure i would have gotten a donut with "you're fired".

Mondays are never fun, so im just glad its over, look forward to tomorrow, and do it all again.

Song of the day: Kill me quickly - Thrice

THRICE
Kill Me Quickly

can we,
can we kill each other quickly?
quick enough so i won't feel it?
a shot of strobe light anesthia
and I'll be fine

as I begin to feel cold
my hands are shaking from fear,
white from clutching my pride,
red from cutting you,
and blue from telling lies.

'cause I'm sick of the stabbing,
I'm sick of the breaking,
I'm sick of the bleeding until we fall down,
sick of this circle of death that we dance through
again and again, just lay me in the ground.
let's fall asleep together,
hold me darling 'cause I'm scared,
and I can't do this alone.

but i need!
your heartbeat
to own me,
your cold lips to breathe,
a promise that, tomorrow
we'll wake up somewhere new.

2003-02-09T21:10:00.000-08:00
Yeah, so i crashed at Jeff's last night cause he said that we would watch 40 days and 40 nights. I am addicted to that movie, I should go and buy it, but i'm just a lazy kid. I only lasted about 1/3 of the way then i passed out.

I was awakened at like 11, by Jeff going to take a piss. Then I took my shot and had some pop and crashed again.

Then the greatest thing happened. At like 11:30, Jeffs mom bangs on the door, then opens it and throws Mcdonalds at us. MMMMMMMM so good, breakfast in bed, can not beat that.

Finally, I dragged my self out of bed at like 2, and we watched some True Lies, but then my mom phoned and yelled at me cause she didnt know where i was. So then I raced home and no one was home. I just was starting to relax when Jeff calls me in a mad panic, telling me that his keys and stuff are in my trunk. Well that was the last thing that I wanted to hear. So I got ready in like 20 minutes and raced back to his house.

We then went and picked up some presents for our girlfriends, and went to Alisons. We gave the presents to Alison, to give to the girls. Then they came running outside and we talked for a bit.

After that we headed back to Jeff's and we found Mike and Melissa on the side of the road. Mike hit something and popped his tire, and they were just about to put on the spare. To make a long story short, we gave them a ride to Melissa's house and a tow truck came and took his car to Honda west to get fixed. Mike was super sad, but i would be to if my car got wreaked.

So now we are at like 630, and we are back at Jeffs again. We were gonna order pizza, but we decide dto hit up our regalar weekend spot Ricky's. It's the best because you can get Breakfast at night. I got some french toast and they gave me some no sugar added syrup. I was like Sweet Sweet, how did they know I was diabetic. Jeff gives me a look, "James all you ever say is I'm Diabetic, or Diabeties Rules man yeah". I guess he's right, I don't mean too, it just sorta come out.

The weather was really bad by now so I decided to head home, cause i'm so tired. I don;t know why im still awake, it's like this blog thing makes me post everyday. There is no not posting, that would mean death.

But yeah bed yes sleep good. Monday bad, bah.

Song of the Day: Anthem Part 2 - Blink 182

BLINK 182
Anthem Part 2

Everything has fallen to pieces,
Earth is dying help me Jesus
We need guidance, we've been misled,
young and hostile, but not stupid.

Corporate leaders, politicians,
kids can't vote, adults elect them
Laws that rule the school and workplace,
signs that caution, sixteen's unsafe.

We really need to see this through,
we never wanted to be abused
We'll never give up, it's no use,
if we're fucked up you're to blame

Let this train wreck burn more slowly,
kids are victims in this story
Drown our youth with useless warnings,
teenage rules they're fucked and boring

We really need to see this through,
we never wanted to be abused
We'll never give up, it's no use,
if we're fucked up you're to blame

Everything has fallen to pieces,
Everything has fallen to pieces,
Everything has fallen to pieces,
Everything has fallen to pieces,
Everything has fallen to ...

We really need to see this through,
we never wanted to be abused,
We'll never give up, it's no use,
if we're fucked up you're to blame!

2003-02-09T14:50:00.000-08:00
Tired.....again.

I pretty much just passed out at Jeff's house, I hate being a DD (Diabetic Driver), I just wanted to get out of that damn car. I slept until around 2:30 today and I still wake up tired. Jeff doesn't think that i'm actually diabetic, everytime i test myself around him im always perfect. It was awesome this morning though, cause at like 12, Jeff's mom opens his door and throws in some mcdonalds.

2003-02-08T12:45:00.000-08:00
PENNYWISE
Perfect People

All the perfect people sha
Staring back at me on tv in magazines
look so good like a box of fresh twinkies
What the hell happened to me?
So I took a drive to a rich and wealthy country
Saw everything I wanted and everything I need
Went right up and tried to join their party
You oughta seen the look when they saw me
Fucked up eyes stupid grin
Perfect people won't let me in
Who's who list where's my name
They won't let me join their game
I bet that you think that I'm insane
There's no one left for me to blame
Screw the perfect people
Fuck they all look the same
We're not much to look at
Too short dumb and so fat
Never gonna win a beauty pageant its a curse
Always gonna be a better doorman
At the best clubs
How could things be any worse?
Don't have much to go on don't want your opinion
Don't have much to gain and I ain't got much to lose
Looks like you got it all and I'd really like to
Get some
You got something I could use

2003-02-07T19:50:00.000-08:00
Well.

I guess that the bowling idea got shot down hard. Off to Claudio's it is, lets hope that its a good movie or this could be a interesting night.

I just wanted to post another song before I left. This is an amazing song, check it out.

Song: Yellowcard - Powder

2003-02-07T15:31:00.000-08:00
ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been waiting forever to say that. I had to go through hell to get here though, damn donut fryer. The thing just wouldnt stay on, and then when I finally did get all my donuts fried, some guy buys two dozen right away. He wasnt the only one that did this either, and I think that I made more donuts today than I have ever! I had to give in today cause i was just making so many. I had an apple fritter, but didnt put any icing. I have to say that it tasted just as good, and I would know because I used to eat like 2 donuts a day at least.

My whole body is just aching with pain. I think that I over did it at the gym, just a little. I think that when you feel like your 40 there is a problem.

I'm hoping for bowling tonight, I think that Kendall was gonna tell all the Grandin people and see who is up for it. Bowling has to be the most amazing sport that there is, other than skateboarding. It's cheap, it's great fun, and you don't even really need any skill to play. Pierre put up a good challenge last time so hopeful he will come tonight otherwise i will just have to beat Kendall...again.

If you havent already noticed, im trying to add pictures to this thing, but i can't get the img src to work. Kendall I need help!!

I guess that I should go and get ready, maybe mess around with my bass a little.

Song of the Day: Allister - Know It all

2003-02-07T15:03:00.000-08:00

2003-02-06T21:48:00.000-08:00
Well tonight was almost exciting. Talked to Kendall for awhile and that was nice. Then watched Friends, which was pretty funny. Joey and Phoebe set up Rachel and Ross on seperate horrid blind dates and called it their plan (which also had a Dr. Evil like laugh to go along with it). In the end, Rachel and Ross figure out that they had been set up on purpose and then chase down their Friends. Also Monica and Chandler almost had sex in front of Rachel's baby, but decided it was morally wrong.

Nice song Matt...at least the first one seems like it could go somewhere, the second not so much. I have gotten some of a song written but i dont really wanna post it on my blog because any stranger that reads this could just copy it.

Ok I just wrote this, and i want to know how it is:

Please don't come back to me
Cause i'm all out of sympathy
Not sure what you want of me
You just won't ever let me be

2003-02-06T16:01:00.000-08:00
Well its almost Friday now and that means only one more day of work. Today was another long day at IGA, but nothing exciting really happened. The regular frying donuts, wanting to eat donuts, break, lunch, break, umm break, standing around, going home. The one bad thing about today was how much my legs hurt. Hopefully this pain is worth it, cause oh man. Oh yeah, but also before I left I had to slice some strawberries, I ate some of those and that kinda put me in the mood.

Tonight is gonna be hopefully just a lay around the house night. Watch the new friends and play some nhl 2k3 and sleep. Oh man sleep is sounding so good right about now. I'm hoping that Kendall can do something tonight though, I never see her and it sucks.

Its really nice out today, maybe I should totally go nuts on my car and clean it diabetic style. Throw on some 19 inch rims and a 300000000 dollar system. That would be sweet, i really wanna buy a Toyato Supra, the got Turbo and I got 5000 bucks that is burning a hole in my bank account.

ok but its time to go and shower and get ready to take on the world,

Song of the Day: AFI - The Days of Phoenix

AFI
The Days Of Phoenix

I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet,
candle wax, and dried up flowers
The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling
Beckoning to sleep,
Offering a dream

words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me

I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy

The words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me

I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay.
I fell into fantasy

The girl on the wall always waited for me,
And she was always smiling
The teenage death boys
The teenage death girls
And everyone was dancing
Nothing could touch us then
No one could change us then
Everyone was dancing
Nothing could hurt us then
No one could see us then
Everyone was dancing
Everyone was dancing

No one could see me

I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy

Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away

I fell into fantasy

2003-02-05T23:21:00.000-08:00
Kendall has now met my mom. My mother has a way with scaring anyone that I invite over, its a talent im sure that she has worked on. Yeah, but Kendall came over and we had some dinner and played some ps2. Some good quality time together, but its only like an hour at a time. I'm feeling deprieved, i think that I should come up with a plan to kidnap her.

Man my legs hurt a lot. Went to the gym with Jeff and Melissa. Jeff is like a drill sergeant, he was yelling at Melissa so she wouldn't stop doing situps; fun times. I worked on the Leg Press seeing as the diagram said that it would the buttocks region....but it just ended up making my legs useless for the time being. It probably didnt help that we rode the bikes for 30 minutes before we left too. My damn seat was to high though and it HURT me deeply if you catch my drift. The bikes also made Melissa have a little problem too, her butt was soaked when we left, she had a wrap a towel around herself, (read her shoutout from yesterday).

I am also hurt by seeing that gas prices are going up again. How is that possible!! Not to long ago, 56.9 cents a litre, now its 76.9! Calgary is getting so pricey, but yet i'm not seeing any more money on my pay check. Oh yeah, and Jeff's mom really wants Jeff and I to rent an apartment together. I think that it would be cool, I really wanna escape from my house. It's not that bad, but no curfew, no rules, and no parents. Oh man that will be the party house oh yes.

Well, its like midnight so time to call it a night.

Midnight Snack Song Lozin' Must - Millencolin

MILLENCOLIN
Lozin' Must

When I am lozin' must in a conversation
it makes me use my imagination
start to think that they're after me
'cause I'm as sore as those monkeys hope.
The chat goes on and I feel smaller,
the guys in front of me they get taller
when I open my mouth again to tell them something more
they answer me with a hockeyscore.

Must be strong, can't be wrong
or you'll be lozin' must, you'll be lozin' trust in yourself.

Well, I have this girl and I make her crazy
when I'm gone she's bored and lazy.
I get a kick from pushin' her
but I'm not sure about how she feels about it.
My favorite hockeyteam are strugglin'
it makes my stoamch bubblin' bad
their hard time really makes me sad.
We had some fucked up years now it's time to whipe away those tears.

It's been a tough time for me this past year,
lots of questions who I am or what I wanna be.
I also found some answers the fog is gone.
I feel better every day and now the feeling is here to stay.

2003-02-04T23:27:00.000-08:00
Went to Jeff's and watched Disturbing Behavior. That movie is awesome, all the preps die!!! Oh what a perfect world it would be if only the preps could just all die. The whole Ruckers thing didnt happen because Kendall's parents are the most strick people ever. If I had honor roll marks my parents would be like buying me cars and trips around the world. Unfortunetly, yeah 50% in English kinda killed that. Jeff and I tried to convince Kendall to rebel and just tell her parents to screw off and just leave her house, but she wouldnt. I cant wait until all of you graduate, then there will be some sweet all night parties and it will be diabetic!

So after that plan was folied, we just decided to go and get a Gamecube and some food. I have now decided that any food that I eat and go to Jeff's house will lead to Jeff hating me (just ask Jeff), its not good. Then Hick Mike phoned and he talked about how Jeff is going to go see him in like April and how he is gonna come to Calgary. Mike is seriously gonna try and get with every single girl in Calgary. He doesnt called it Calgary, it is now Condom City.

Now im home and not tired in the least. This is when I wish that I didnt have a job, and I could just get in my car and drive anywhere. Not caring about anything but how far away I can get from here. Find an empty field and just lay there and stare at the stars, in complete silence. Just listening to a slight breeze bushing the grass around me.

Midnight Snack Song: Whatever, Goodnight - Agent Felix

2003-02-04T16:07:00.000-08:00
Another full day of work leaves me with an empty belly. I'm having rotisseriere chicken for dinner. Its not to appitizing after you have had to make them though. Take a raw slimy chicken, spread the legs and shove in a steal rod, add some salt, and there ya go. Also dont forget to wear rubber gloves and an apron cause samanonola is everywhere. Anyone hungry....yeah.

I did however have a slack day, pretty much just watched Carla (cakedecorator) make a cake. Made some muffins, decorated some cupcakes, that about it. Oh yes my job rules, they are paying me to be bored. Sometimes its just not worth it though. Tonight hopefully will hold lots of fun. Going over to Jeff's at like 6ish, then getting some more food (i hope) then maybe picking up Kendall and going to Ruckers. No bowling but it will do for a tuesday night.

Lots of songs to pick from for todays but i'm gonna have to go with
Song of the Day: Beating a Dead Horse - Fenix Tx

FENIX TX
Beating A Dead Horse

I hate you can't stand your holding back
But I wanna say much more every day gets worse
Can't take this we made this
Been a long time running out of patience
Watch those evil words
Don't slow down don't go down
You should learn how to take it to the last round
Think of circumstance
Everyone's opinions matter more than your words of wisdom
Give it one more chance
Now you know this is your life
And it's so beautiful but pitiful
It's typical and now you know this is your life
And it's so beautiful but pitiful
It's typical and it's all yours
It's not fair you don't care
Sometimes I wish we never made it here
Don't mean what you say
Use your voice make some noise
It's on the table
So you better make the right choice
Can't have it your way now you know this is your life
And it's so beautiful but pitiful
It's typical now
You know this is your life
And it's so beautiful but pitiful
It's typical and it's all yours now you know this is your life
And it's so beautiful but pitiful
It's typical and now you know this is your life
And it's so beautiful but pitiful
It's typical and it's all yours

2003-02-03T21:18:00.000-08:00
Whoa, a first post. I know that this will seem weird that I have also been asylumated into getting a blog. the fact is though, that I'm hoping that this will help to to get some song writing going if i can just post about how im feeling and so on.

On that note, sometimes life seems to have no reason. Our existence is pointless. That is until you hear of people dying, people being changed by tragic events. You just have to be so grateful that you can still wake up and breathe, have a chance to make something of your life that was taken from innocent teenagers.

Now that I got that off my chest, work today sucked. I'm sure that you will get sick of me saying that, but its true. I finally worked a full shift for the first time this year I think. There is just nothing to do but stand around and talk. Until today that is, the day before the first tuesday of the month. For those of you who are not everyday Garden Market shoppers, the first tuesday of the month is 10% off a purchase of over 25 dollars. That means that today was a prep day, try and get as much product out as possible. FRICK! is all that i could come out of my mouth the whole day. Stupid not diabetic people needing your donuts and muffins, seriously i think that you could survive without. I know I do, and look what it has done for my figure *points at lower back where an ass should be*.

Right.........well moving along. Party on Saturday, the champion of the foozball table will return to take on anyone (preferably drunk people) and will kick some ass. That's right Melissa, i;m gonna use the diabetic superpowers again.

And lastly I must have a song of the day
Song of the day:Get Free - The Vines

The Vines
Get Free

I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
Ride into the sun
She never loved me
She never loved me
She never loved me
Why should anyone?

(Come here, come here, come here)
I'll take your photo for ya
(Come here, come here, come here)
Drive you around the corner
(Come here, come here, come here)
You know you really oughta
(Come here, come here, come here)
Move out of California

Get (get)
Me (me)
Far (far)
When I have alot to lose
Save (save)
Me (me)
From (from)
Here! (here)

When it's pretty time
Look into your mind
Don't wait

I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
Ride into the sun
She never loved me
She never loved me
She never loved me
Why should anyone?

(Come here, come here, come here)
I'll take your photo for ya
(Come here, come here, come here)
Drive you around the corner
(Come here, come here, come here)
You know you really oughta
(Come here, come here, come here)
Move out of California